AKA how are you surviving it?
Mom and her partner are going to a reunion with some neighbours, get drunk and whatever and invited me but i won’t go. I know how those parties are and I hate being surrounded by alcoholic ignorant people and people I don’t know… My little bro (16 yrs old) goes out with his friends. My other bro that is 5 years younger than me (he’s 29 years old) Will pass the NYE with her fiance and her family in their families restaurant.
So I’ll stay in my room alone again. There’s no reason to go outside. The stupid fireworks won’t let me sleep anyways so I’ll play Xbox and watch some p*rn maybe. I know it can be seen as pathetic for some, but that’s my reality and I can’t do anything about it.
Platypus, my brother in Christ, do you hear how you talk out of both sides of your mouth?
You’d be sad if you had to hang out with people, because you hate that, but you’d be sad if you are alone because you hate that.
It’s not your circumstances making you sad. It’s you. It’s your refusal to engage with your problems because you’d rather languish in your depression.
There’s nothing on earth that could fall into your lap that would make you happy. The world could bend to your will in every way, and you’d still be miserable because the thing making you miserable isn’t external.
You have the power to make 2025 better than 2024. It won’t be easy, and you’ll have to do a lot of things you don’t like doing. That’s life. That’s being an adult. Doing the hard things you don’t want to do to make life better for yourself and the people around you.
And you can do it. But you never will so long as you keep lying to yourself by saying there’s “nothing you can do about it.” There is. You just have to take the first step.