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Cake day: July 5th, 2023

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  • I think everyone is under the impression that because we survived the first four years, we’ll survive the second.

    On election day, I steadied myself by saying that perhaps the only way to get a Bernie Sanders or FDR-like leader is for complete and utter disaster to occur prior. Of course, I can’t imagine a worse disaster than the first four years, but, hey, maybe this time will be even worse.

    It’s really hard to hold onto hope for anything better, when throughout the course of my lifetime, everything has only gotten worse.

    Income inequality was the highest it had been since the great depression, but that was years ago, and it’s only gotten worse.

    The whole world was supposed to band together to stop the climate from warming past 1.5 C. We hit that last year, decades earlier than even the worst timelines predicted.

    The rise of far-right nationalists in seemingly every country is like giving toddlers mid-tantrum nuclear launch codes. The fallout would kill us all.

    I’m a non-violent person, but if a someone wants to start the progressive socialist revolution, know that I’ll stand beside you, brother.



  • Biking to the local pool to spend an entire day. Low-dive and high-dive until my eyes couldn’t take any more of the chlorine. Take a short break where I’d use my allowance to buy a choco-taco or big ol’ ice cream cookie sandwhich. The days when I never thought twice about my protruding little boy belly being visible. I was friendly with one of the life-guards, who was real hairy so we called him wolf-man. I’d get up on the diving board and ask him what trick I should do next, and he’d call it out. Haven’t been able to find a good high-dive at a pool in a long time.

    Days when I’d venture out into the neighborhood, going door to door trying to collect enough kids for a proper game of kickball. One day one of the kids dad’s came out and played with us, and it was such a blast.

    Biking to my school during summer break to play on the playground, finding a huge dumptruck load of mulch had been deposited on the blacktop, and I was able to kind of bike up one side and hop off. Spent hours on that mulch pile

    Rollerblading in the neghborhood, using my older brothers skateboard ramp to do tricks. One time I went door-to-door, telling my neighbors that I was going to do a rollerblading trick show, and if they wanted to come outside and watch it would cost them a dollar. Think I made like 5 dollars, had some nice adults come stand at the end of their driveway, watching me do jumps off the ramp for like 7 minutes. I finished on a 360 spin with a grab to a patient golf-clap that seemed at the time just short of thunderous applause.



  • It sucked, but it was the right call. As soon as I got sober, I realized that we didn’t belong together. To put it plainly, I didn’t enjoy spending time with her. Something the alcohol masked tremendously. Luckily I had some support from friends, but even that came with caveats. I went from being respected, to being seen as a creepy outsider within my friend group, which was very weird. I hosted two great parties whilst married, and once single, I decided to throw a Halloween costume party rager, and nobody showed up. It’s like taking a very large cut to your social standing.

    I also had some random people come out the woodwork trying to jump my bones, and it was such a turn-off, gave me the ick. I honestly should have just moved to a new city after the divorce, it would have made things easier.

    I made the same mistake a lot of freshly de-coupled people make, trying to date WAY too early. Like, 6 months after the end of a decade long relationship, is not the time to start a new long-term relationship. As time goes on, now I’m 3 years post-divorce, and due to some more personal turmoil, I’m only now opening myself up to the possibility of trying to date again. It sucks that doing the right thing is usually also the hard thing, and takes time to get over.