on the one hand this is what I said I wanted. The truth is more nuanced: I’m not quitting the job neither most of my coworkers: I’m quitting my manager and some childish coworkers.
on the other hand, why do I have the one to quit to keep my sanity? It’s not fair.
It sucks that the ones who give attention to the manager are the ones in good graces with her and that the quiet one who works when they go smoking and gossiping gets ignored, unrecognized and treated worse because he doesn’t want to play office politics.
A rational person would understand the difference between the things I can change and what I cannot change, but a part of me is still screaming for vengeance.
What I said on other posts about being scared still applies.
I think it’s the fact that it is a change and change brings uncertainty. If you stay where you are, you at least know what to expect even if it’s crap. Changing… You don’t know what to expect.
It’ll be okay. Tell yourself if will be okay. It’s time to step out of your comfort zone and embrace the change. It could be worse, but more likely it’ll be better. You’re doing the right thing.